Wednesday 6 january 2010
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so i'm back. dunno for how long, cause i don't know what to do with myself right now. there is this storm that will not go away. but i love storms so that's alright. I'm sitting here thinking up
scenarios in me head because... that's what i do. and then if i really like what i've pondered then i write them down. and then i see where it leads me. it's also a lot of fun when i have music
playing because then it can be even more exciting. I love writing to music. especially really powerful music that makes sense to me. and i find that i write better because i have a mood set. i
really miss a friend right now. but.. i think.. im starting to not anymore. i think these are the last few reminents of feeling towards this said friend. and it's not who you think i'm talking
about. She has a boyfriend and the last time i saw her was March. And, well, that might be your first hint to stop talking to said female. but i cant do that, i know what shes doing and i dont
agree. but i really cant just drop friends. i cant. its too hard. nayways, i know what shes thinking right now, and i know whats going on from hearing from one of our friends. and i ahve tried
numerous times to get this girl to speak to me. but im starting to give up. just let everything go and speak to me. it would make everyone feel better. i don't know how friends can do this to
another. i really cant. tell me why, because if you know, that would make things easier. because i just dont understand. so i think im going to either block her, and wait for her to come to me
because i cant stand seeing her online nad no reply. so, i think this is starting to begin the end of a long cold war. where no one is going to do anything. i did my part and now im finished. its
your turn. fuck this. "..Bury me. Because you're killing me." i also forgot how much i love The Killers. I like them because they sound different then the rest of the scum thats out there right
now. I need new music once in a while because i get bored way too easily. and this new cd i have of 30STM, is just what i needed. anyone know where i can buy their first cd, so i dont have to order
it? anywyas, off to find something to do. (But probably not)