Wednesday 6 january 2010 3 06 /01 /Jan /2010 20:48
so i'm back. dunno for how long, cause i don't know what to do with myself right now. there is this storm that will not go away. but i love storms so that's alright. I'm sitting here thinking up scenarios in me head because... that's what i do. and then if i really like what i've pondered then i write them down. and then i see where it leads me. it's also a lot of fun when i have music playing because then it can be even more exciting. I love writing to music. especially really powerful music that makes sense to me. and i find that i write better because i have a mood set. i really miss a friend right now. but.. i think.. im starting to not anymore. i think these are the last few reminents of feeling towards this said friend. and it's not who you think i'm talking about. She has a boyfriend and the last time i saw her was March. And, well, that might be your first hint to stop talking to said female. but i cant do that, i know what shes doing and i dont agree. but i really cant just drop friends. i cant. its too hard. nayways, i know what shes thinking right now, and i know whats going on from hearing from one of our friends. and i ahve tried numerous times to get this girl to speak to me. but im starting to give up. just let everything go and speak to me. it would make everyone feel better. i don't know how friends can do this to another. i really cant. tell me why, because if you know, that would make things easier. because i just dont understand. so i think im going to either block her, and wait for her to come to me because i cant stand seeing her online nad no reply. so, i think this is starting to begin the end of a long cold war. where no one is going to do anything. i did my part and now im finished. its your turn. fuck this. "..Bury me. Because you're killing me." i also forgot how much i love The Killers. I like them because they sound different then the rest of the scum thats out there right now. I need new music once in a while because i get bored way too easily. and this new cd i have of 30STM, is just what i needed. anyone know where i can buy their first cd, so i dont have to order it? anywyas, off to find something to do. (But probably not)
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Tuesday 5 january 2010 2 05 /01 /Jan /2010 19:56
RAIN DAY! so.. that means, i have to go back to pick up my mom, have nothing to do until tongiht when my friends are home from work (friend actually). so yeah.So VIRGINIA! came over for the weekend and it was tres cool seeing her! Seeing as i hadnt seen her since the end of school. she also brought up a good point: we live so close to one another, why havent we done anything?? weird man. we're weird. weeeeird. So yeah, it was verrry good seeing her!!!!ya i really havent much to say. other then, had some leto dreams me thinks last ngiht. doesnt suprise me since i jsut saw Lord of War. Sounds good me thinks. aye.so im gonna jet right now cause im really boring right now.
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Monday 4 january 2010 1 04 /01 /Jan /2010 15:36
I SAW PIRATES LAST NIGHT AND IT WAS SOOOO YUMMY! I LOOOVED IT. OH SWEET LORD I LOVE THAT MAN!*cough*I also bought a cd today that i have been looking for for a VERY effing long time. 30 Seconds to Mars's second cd. now.. if i could only find their first one.. id be very happy. HAPPY. in the pants. well... yeah.. ok. ummm... blue eyed front man - I love you. hard core. I love blue eyed boys. especially with all that dark hair.. yum. wow.
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Sunday 3 january 2010 7 03 /01 /Jan /2010 14:37
Viv, how you holdin up? Vitaly asked putting a hand onto his sisters shoulder.
She shrugged it off without looking at him, only hot tears burned at the rims. Youve done enough. She said coldly and started walking away towards the ocean where she could be alone. Her personal alcove was walking along the ocean. No one seemed to be able to reach her there. Completely alone she would and could be there, even if there were hundreds of other people she didnt know there. Although, it did help immensely when no one was there but her and the seagulls.
He watched her walking away knowing exactly where she was headed. It did pain him to know how screwed up their relationship was and how much of it was his fault. How he always seemed to pick the war and battles just to show how tough he was. It also didnt help any part of the situations that he was either drunk or high when he did it. He couldnt honestly remember the last time they shared a laugh with one another. He could point out all of the laughter Yuri and Vivianna shared; they had such a great relationship. She knew he cared and was watching out for her with a gentle yet concerned eye, and she respected it. Not to say they never did have their quarrels, but they also always ended them, softly.
Fuck. He said quietly obviously annoyed. He felt his hands start to quiver and he knew what he was aching for, but he had promised Yuri that he was would stop his habits. And he had silently promised his younger sister that he would stop so he could possibly save their relationship. He brushed the outside of his suit jacket looking for his smokes and a lighter. He felt them and took them and the lighter out and lit up a smoke as quickly as he could.
Shell get over it. Yuri said coming up beside him. She always does.
Youre obviously not talking about her and I.
I am. Just talk to her.
I have tried. She wont listen to me. I dont blame her, look at what Ive done the past few years.
Have you tried talking to her? Cause you know and I know that she doesnt respond to threats very well. Calmly talk to her. She needs someone to talk to right now.
Vitaly took in a long shaky drag and let it out just as long, scratching his nose with his thumb. Yuri, I dont know. He said with a chuckle. I just dont know anymore. I dont know my sister as well as I should. All weve ever done is fight. I cant honestly tell you when weve shared a laugh with one another, or a moment that a brother and a sister should share. Look at you two! You two have had so many happy moments, and all Ive done is pick fights with her.
You two are closer then you think. You guys are a lot more alike then you want to believe. Everything will work out, trust me. Go talk to her and then when you guys come back, we three need to have a chat. Yuri said with a sigh. He turned to leave and the confused Vitaly shook his head with a raised brow.
What are you talking about? What are you up to?
We need to have a chat is all. Thats all Im saying now.
Youre bringing her in. Thats it. Youre bringing her in. No way, no way is she getting into this, Yuri.(side note: I like to add in my own characters. Just a word of thought in case some of you know what this is from and are thinking, "What the fuck? That person isn't in this!"AND, when i thought of this, i always saw Vitaly and Viv a fighter ofeach other. So they would be constantly fighting each other. But always loved one anotherimmensely. I'm thinking of changing their names and making something out of this based on another ideaand not what i got this from. just a note. Ta.
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Friday 1 january 2010 5 01 /01 /Jan /2010 12:37
HUNTER IS BACK!!!!!!!!Rouel (my new best friend), brought him over last night. I'm so happy! And it is working so well now, and so quickly! I loves it! Now, i'm going to take care of this little mate of mine so he doesnt end back in the infermery (sp? i care not.) a'la Rouel. So that means, no more Porn for Laura AND Hunter. BAAHAHA! a wee inside joke between me and my new best friend! teeheeya, but really, Hunter is going to recieve some wicked TLC.Honestly, this guy is awsome. He's going to send me some music possibly, and can take me out so shoot something wicked hard core fun! He's a very awsome person!ON A SIDE NOTE:the U of W drama students who took my spot in Directing 1, are going to face a sniper hit. ONLY, if i do not get into the program in due time. So, if you are in my way, watch your back. I'm trained, and ready to arm. If any of you are BFA Acting students... well.. that's just a given ;)but i got into my other drama classes. Scene Painting for Theatre (my technical course...), and (in an english accent now ladies and gents!) Creative Voice and Movement. Interesting stuffs. I also took a Psych. adolesent class and a Women's studies class. But i really only wanted Directing and this history of crime class... but apprently you need to be eiother a history, or crime major... wankers. All of them. bloody hell. I really want to be in crime. it would be so wickedly cool. so interesting about the serial killers and such. and the socio-paths. wow. so interesting. but i want to make movies, so c'est la vie! such is life my humble readers. such is life.i'm going to watch LORD OF WAR tonight.and then POTC tomorrrrrrrroooooooooow!Johnny's ma sugar daddy, y'all!ta
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